This publication is the fifth collection of drawings and paintings by the illustrator and fine artist J.A.W. Cooper. It documents Cooper's personal struggle through guilt, mourning and, finally, acceptance as the artist lost and then refound a love for their craft after taking a two-year hiatus. Through imagery revolving around the cycles of life and death, seasons, joy and pain, Cooper explores the relationship between making art and an unhealthy reliance on it for self-worth and identity. Works from Cooper's 2021 solo show "Gilt" at Gallery Nucleus, are gathered here along with some that were featured in the 2023 solo show "Curious" at the same gallery.